Thinking on a Snow Day

Dear Diary, 


I am so nervous about my college applications. Why are they so stressful?

I feel like everyday at school is the same thing over and over again.

Studying is not that bad when I am not exhausted. 

I was up till 1am the other night studying for one of my tests just to find out school was canceled on the day of the test. HAHA I guess that is a good thing because it means more time for studying. 

What do people think of me?

I LOVE yoga.

OMG I have so much homework. 

I was supposed to have a track meet today. 

Breathing exercises actually work when you do them correctly. 

Taylor Swift is so talented. How is she such a good writer? She should teach me. 

Imagine being famous????? 

Sometimes I wonder what people are thinking, but then I do not want to know because it would probably freak me out. 

My hands are so dry. Thank goodness I have hand cream. 

My room is so small. 

I always bite my cheeks. 

I just ordered DoorDash for the first time. 

I love listening to people talk about life. It makes me think.

I love deep thinking. 

I miss doing dance class and all the recitals and stuff. 

I wonder where I will go to college. I hope I enjoy myself there. 

It is so crazy thinking about how different I am now from when I was younger. Even like sophomore year I was such a different person. 

Whoever is reading this, I hope you know I am proud of you. Life is tough sometimes. 

I wish I could give a hug to everyone who needs one. 

I wish I could see like a trailer of my future life. Like a movie trailer but of my future. You know what I mean? 

I really want to sit around a fire outside with people and talk about life. I do not think I have ever done that before. 

I always twist my hair. If you ever see me do it, please tell me to stop. 

I am so different than I was last year, like literally. 

I made a vision board for 2022 at yoga and meditation last weekend, and it is on my wall now. 

OMGGG HAPPY NEW YEAR!! GRADUATION YEAR!

A few people told me this week that I seem more calm and happy now… it's probably yoga. 

Do you think there is a difference between being nice and being real? I think I do. I don’t know. I read about it somewhere, and it has been running in my head all day. 

How many days till February break? I am going to check. One second. About 42 days including weekends. 

I don’t have practice tomorrow. It’ll probably feel weird sleeping in on a Saturday.

Okay, I got to go because I need to do some homework. 


Sincerely,

Anna Flynn

Take a minute to breathe and close your eyes. You matter. ♡

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