jealousy
Sometimes I get jealous of other people. Is that the right word? Sometimes I envy those who have “more” than me, are more “successful” than me. Wait, what does “successful” even mean. Even though I am 20 years old, my jealousy for others is still there. I wonder what it feels like to have a large group of friends, a group of people that actually want you around. Like… they want to invite you places. What is it like to have so much praise on social media that you don’t have to turn the likes and comments off on posts? What is it like to have people text you first? Sometimes I get jealous of other people. I wonder what it is like to be the receiver rather than giver. Be validated and complimented. I thought the jealousy feeling would go away. I thought it would go away when I “grew up.” Society says you’re “grown up” when you’re not a teenager anymore, but society says a lot of things. Society ...